Saturday, February 28

Friend, Amigo,Ami,Freund

The death of a friend is equivalent to the loss of a limb."

"Life without a friend is like death without a witness."

" A friend is one to whom one may pour out all the contents of one's heart, chaff and grain together, knowing that the gentlest of hands will take and sift it, keep what is worth keeping and with a breath of kindness blow the rest away."

(I got those proverbs from this website)

Today is a goregous sunny day and I am loving all of the uv-rays. It is one of those days that stops to make me ponder things, appreciate, just quietly sit and get warm. So what I pondered today was my friends. I am truly, WITH OUT a doubt BLESSED when it comes to the wonderful people I have in my life. I was worried about moving to another country and not having anybody to get away with. To laugh & cry with. I know, I know I always have my hubby and he is the one of the top ones on the list. He knows that or I hope he does. To me though you must have those women in your life that change things, affect you in a postive way, give you that away time from the other half of you. Sometimes you even find that in another guy. But I only have those guy friends from before my marriage. You have to be careful there with the guy friend thing. =)

Well my luck and blessings certaintly did not run out when I moved here. I still have been able to remain in good contact with those back home in the states and made a couple more. Two that really make it easy here, B & K. Those are the two I think of inviting places first, the ones that if I wanted to mitch and moan about something I would call. They have always shown they care about me and want the best for me in the short 8 months of friendship. I also have J & A...but the first two I just clicked with instantly, and one is leaving this fall. Which the thought of for me saddens me. Just the way it is in the get to travel meet some awesome folks..but one day they will be taken from your circle and at times it is the best for them.

They say you loose friendships the older you get, that once you have a family it is hard to keep close. There have been those that slip away, you loose that bond with I have noticed. But some of them were not worth the time I was putting into them. Maybe I was not worth the time other ones were putting into me, would like to think I am a good friend. However there has to be times I just did not give them what they deserved. To think I never made mistakes would be waay to cocky of me. To me though you count your good friends as family. You hold on, do what it takes, those lil.. "just calling to say I love ya and hello" calls, the birthday cards(from me that are always late). I have gotten stronger friendships as I got older, to be able to detect the bullcrap from the truth. That is why I am truly blessed when it comes to friends. Alaska, Utah, Texas and now Belgium have introduced me to amazing, spectacular people. Some moved away before I did and now I have great places to go vist them. Wow really starting to feel like the word "I" is being used. Does that look bad? What other word could I use without it being worse proper grammar than I already use. =) hahaha

Anyways off my main reason for the blog....just to say THANK YOU to my girls, the few guys, my sisters, my blessed family. I certaintly did something right in the last life to get these people in this one.

Do not get me wrong there have been negative people that fooled me and I let in and got hurt. Do not want to seem all. " Love my life, all is perfect". I just wanted to be able to put it out there to the friends that read this that I KNOW how lucky I am to have them. That if I have not told them thank you before. THANK YOU!!! For the things you have done yesterday will do today and I know you will do in the future.

Wednesday, February 25

I Heart Faces Week --- B&W

So I was doing my normal routine of reading all the lovely posts my fellow bloggers had posted this afternoon. As it normal goes this one blog gave me an idea. Gergoia has a way with finding awesome things to do with photography, as well she mixes poems, pictures, lyrics from music and passages from books in the most splendid way. I have always found several other of the blogs that I like to read via her read list. To me it is no suprise that she found something else that is great to do. A FACE CONTEST. Not an actual face..but a photo.Sooo she is doing this contest on this site called iheartfaces

SO I choose to use this picture of me, bare, fresh....vunerable per say. No mask, just me and my smile. the shadows is something that really makes my face pop I think. I had taken it and sent it to my husband on a TDY, that way he could have a pic of me while thinking of him. He always makes me smile wider than my mouth can actual stretch. I like

I figured why not I will go ahead and do it too. So this is the photo that I am entering.
YOu just must must MUST go check out everyone else entires Again at this link.
I looked at only about 50 and was loving every entry. So many people have so much talent.


Tuesday, February 24


Who are you?
You stare at me as If I should know you
I think I know you,
are you me?
Are you what I used to be?
Or maybe what I long to be?

I long for us to know each other again
To be able to talk,
not the silent pleading.
Really talk
Can we?

Take my hand
Off we go

to become
but we.

I was just sitting listening to this lovely artist I found called Neko Case, she is like a mix between Alsion Krausse and Mazzy Star,and a lil of Janice Joplin to me. I added her to my playlist. For all I know you could be listening to her now. Well I started to look at pics, then the a.d.d in me kicked in and started to read old journals. WOW...what a trip. So that is where that lil poem or blurb comes from. It comes from me poking around in my head of the past, now and then looking towards the future. i hope I can stay on this path I am currently on. I long to get away from the large girl, the accept it gal. I want to be the healthly, fit, take charge I deserve the best girl. I think I am getting there. Stayed tuned maybe you can open the curtains with me.


Wednesday, February 18

What Others think...

The Pastor's Ass
The pastor entered his donkey in a race and it won.
The pastor was so pleased with the donkey that he entered it in the raceagain, and it won again.
The local paper read:
The Bishop was so upset with this kind of publicity that he ordered the pastor not to enter the donkey in another race.
The next day, the local paper headlineread:
This was too much for the bishop, so he ordered the pastor to get rid of the donkey.
The pastor decided to give it to a nun in a nearby convent.
The local paper, hearing of the news, posted the following headline thenext day:
The bishop fainted.
He informed the nun that she would have to get rid of the donkey,
so she sold it to a farmer for $10.
The next day the paper read:
This was too much for the bishop, so he ordered the nun to buy back the donkey and lead it to the plains where it could run wild.
The next day the headlines read:
The bishop was buried the next day.
I had to post that story, I care to much what my loved ones think at times, I have friends who are even worse than I am. But reading that just made me have to please yourself and your god. Only person who can judge me is my savior. No one else. So why should I care. I am not saying go out and be a brat, and do rude things. But when It is something you are okay with do not get so focused on trying to please others.
The moral of the story is being concerned about public opinion can bring you much grief and misery .even shorten your life.
So be yourself and enjoy life.
Stop worrying about everyone else's ass and you'll be a lot happier and live longer!
Have a nice day

Friday, February 13


Hey even though we are not big Valentines Day people. I wanted to give you a little something to say Happy Valentines Day, I love you and Thank here are so words I never say enough...I think anways

Ryon Ray,

Thank you. For being a strong man that I can lean on.
Thank you. For being able to calm me down like no one else can
Thank you. For loving me
Thank you. For showing me that it is okay to say "I need you..."
Thank you. For always being able to know when I am hiding my true feelings.
Thank you..For making me want to be a better person
Thank you. For making me feel beauitful
Thank you. For some how knowing when I need that hug
Thank you. For accepting my family
Thank you. For giving me your family
Thank you. For one day being the father of our children
Thank you. For just laughing gently when I get all nerdy and clap my hands at the lil things.
Thank you. For you

I never feel that I tell you enough, I never show you enough. You mean the world to me. I would not want to be experience these times with anyone else but you. We have been through so, so , so much. We never do anything half ass it is always full throttle using all of our hearts, souls..and sometimes tempers. I am proud to look at you in your know what a good, NO great soilder you are. How your peers and superiors look up to you. You never settle and I might call you greedy at times. But secretly I love that you always get something and then reach for more. Life is never boring with you.

Thank you

You are mine

As I am yours,


Thursday, February 12

Forget.Don't You

Hey Y'all!! I just wanted to write a quick blog to remind you not to forget about my photo blog I am doing with a friend check it out here please. If that does not work it is called Two Friends.Two Pictures on my read list. We are having alot of fun with it to just see how we take the pictures so diffrently. Now as well with another photo goal of mine..the one picture a day. I was getting to were if I did not go anywhere that day that I was finding it hard to be able to take a pic of something around the house and yard that was not Ryon or my pets. I went to the ShutterSisters site and they said not to force yourself with goals like that, you end up with bad pictures it is okay. Well they said it lot more uplifting and used better words.=) I have a link to their page to the left. Anyways so this week I only took one pic, because I do not want to take bad pictures. But I wanted to share with you some of the "photo a day" pictures I have taken. Now my friend Lisa over at her blog has been posting hers every week. For you photo lovers you have got to check her blog out, on my read list it is LISA she is really got an eye for catching things in neat ways. But anyways here are a few of mine that I have taken. 1. flowers ryon got me 2. my favorite cross in my new red bookshelves 3. the antique chair i bought.i am on a red kick

and a weird angle one.
4. first snow fall.i love snow

Oh this week has been absolutely wonderful and full filling. I registered for classes, ordered books. I am not taking that Collge Algerbra 3 class. I thought it was just a basic math but it is not. So I am doing French, Pysch and Western Civilization.Just cross your fingers for me that I get a student loan. My mom and the kids are not going to loose the house(If you do not know I will write a blog about it later but they were one of the ones hit by the nationwide epidemic of foreclourses, well my gram was) oh and we are 80% sure we are going to Switzerland in June. I will tell you more about that laters. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Have a great weekend, do something sweet on Friday the 13th, something with your lover on Saturday and Rest on Sunday like the Lord wants us too. I know I always do.


Friday, February 6


Fast and Blurry
Slow and So clear it is painful
Overwhelming yet never making so much sense as they do right now
Light and carefree as childhood days

Those are my thoughts on this day


Tuesday, February 3


I was accepted to University of Maryland!! I am really stoked!! They offer two sessions in the same time period that other schools just do semesters. I will be doing 3 classes so 9 credit hrs each sessions so that is 18 credit hrs a semester. Their next session starts March to May!! Pyschologly, French and Algerbra will be my first 3 classes. I got denied a grant I really wanted. BUT i am applying at every other thing I can, plus student loans. SO if I have to pay it back. I have to pay it back....

Yippppeee so excited