Friends

"There comes a point in your life when you realize: Who matters, Who never did, Who won't anymore... And who always will. So, don't worry about people from your past,there's a reason why they didn't make it to your future"

I have been wanting to write a lot lately, but I have been doing so in my own personal journal. Because the thoughts have been a bit to personal I think. So I have been getting random quotes or song lyrics and posting them. This is from an email I have got before. It is so true.

I am blessed with the friends I have, I need to stop putting so much effort into the ones that I start to drift from. I feel I have to be best friends with everyone, the one everyone loves, the one that can fix everyones problems, and make them laugh. I need to get over that. To realize the greatness I had with them in the past and just realize we drifted apart and that it is okay to do that. It is not like we broke up or had a fight.

I need to stop holding friends to my expectations, some people just do not communicate the way I do. I just do not understand how you can write a long thing to someone asking about them, telling about yourself. They reply with something totally different, always just about them and that is it. They have phone conversations only about them and then get off the phone. It is okay, to do that, but not ALWAYS. You have to have a two way street. To me that means times it is about you, times it is about them and then the wonderful times you just are laughing, teasing joking and interuptting each other cause you are so happy to talk to them.

But even saying that, even how much it kinda hurts me to see someone update their status 4x a day, comment to other people and yet not respond. Not realize I was there for them, and this is a stressful time for me. Why are they not there for me? I get pissed at myself for acting like this, basically a girl, then I get pissed that I am pissed.=)

It is not fun being all emotional sometimes, anyways I was not there for them to have them come back and re pay the favor, I hope someone will be there for me, but if they are not I need to not get butt hurt, no matter what I am always there, sooo why have the times in between were I just mitch and moan about the way they act. That is just them, I should accept them. Even if I do not not like all the traits. right?

I hope this does not make me seem self centered, I just have been thinking about friends a lot, all the different types out there, really missing my friends and have not been talking to them a lot since "life" is getting in our way. So was feeling down. Here I wanted to just post a meaningful quote and I went and put something personal that seems a bit High Schoolish. If you read this far...sorry about that ramble.

Happy Thursday!!!

~B~