Today

" Every day is a gift, life is not a given right, live each day as if it were your last"


Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal.


Today always makes me think that way, remember back when this day 8 years ago I did think it was my last day, all the things I had left un said, had yet to do.

This day makes me grateful, humble, angry, very angry actually...and always puts me in deep thought. I think of him and that horrible night often, but most especially on today.~I never know what to write sometimes, should I express on this day all the horror, anger, depression, guilt, and horrible never ending sadness I felt? Should I just write a few lines of happy things that remind me of you? Just put a video, with a song playing that makes me think of you?? Do you care? Can you hear me? maybe I should write of the physical pain I went through, all the operations and physica therapy?? I think I will just write a few happy lines..

8 years ago, it seems so much longer, we all had to adapt, learn to live with this thing, this loss, the blackhole that was shoved into our lives. It helped some of us bond and drove others apart. No matter what though we all loved you through it. Just a few things I wanted to tell you..


.~ Thank you for loving me, thank you for wanting me to be the first, because of your love, I was able to accept anothers~

~ You chose me, I will remember that. Always~

~ I actually like that damn song you used to make me listen to, so I hope you laugh when you see me sing a long~

~If you can actually see and hear us, I hope you smile and are proud~

~ Porn Stores, Village Inn, Fireworks and laughter so hard it hurts your belly will make me think of you, our gang and the good times we all miss~

~ YOu really should not have put that costume on, I mean come on it was JJ's~

~ Ford Rules..Dodges Drool..sorry D, BUT I will always, always smile when I see A Dakota Sport~

~ I wonder if you really would have gotten a Polaris tattoo? You were such an Alaskan boy to the core~

~ I have never had as good of sloppy joes as you made that night

~When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight. ~Kahlil Gibran


RIP DUSTIN GARD 1982-2001